Observation

When I was younger I tended to do things intended to leave me feeling numb and dead.
I drank
I smoked
I worked too much
I was withdrawn
I lived a fairly spartan lifestyle.

Getting older I've given up many of those things, and find myself doing more things that make me feel more vibrant and alive.
I exercise more
enjoy the occasional toke when it's offered
I'm much more social
and get laid a lot more often (if not in recent months )

I still work too much, because it's better than not at all, but I don't do it with the same panicked urgency I had in my teens and twenties.

I think the old folks are right when they say that youth is wasted on the young.

And I can't help but wonder if these are my first tentative steps toward becoming one of those skydiving octogenarians, or just my half-assed attempt at a pathetic little mid-life crisis.