Open question.

Is it better to say good-bye to someone while they're still alive and have them spend the rest of their life believing that you don't care, or to let them inflict the pain of their self destruction on you and wait till they've managed to kill themselves so that you can say good-bye when they're no longer able to hear you?   Done both and can't decide which is preferable.   Guess I'll just have to flip a coin, it seems to work for most everything else.         Ah, but what right do I have to be upset?  After all it's such a noble way to die, and offers so many chances to injure the folks who are dumb enough to care.   Sexy too,   The abscesses, that drooping skin, those hollow eyes, that wonderful smell of countless unwashed diseased bodies writhing together in close quarters, money, amphetamines, alcohol, blood, opiates, jis, fear, pain, lust, greed, anger, disappointment...   gotta love that oldest profession...    Turning the people you love into disposable objects since the dawn of time.   But at least we can take comfort in the fact that 'they know what they're doing'.