The most irritating time of the year

Really tired of people.

Tired of the bullshit.

Heart sore and world weary.

It's been a hell of a year, and a hell of a year before that.

And I'm not sure how many more of these I have left in me...



Happy Holidays.

Fighting the last war

I'm reliable assured that my concerns are meaningless, that success is guaranteed and that I have no idea what I'm talking about when I raise concerns that our current path will ultimately lead to our destruction.

Unfortunately the people who offer these assurances and critiques really have no idea how to do what I do, and are looking at the problem from a vantage point that is at least twenty years outdated...

It's going to be a fun winter, hope I make it till spring.

Hot 'n cold

I love conflicting messages from people who have gone to great lengths to demonstrate just how little I mean to them.

I especially love it when folks think that such things put me off balance.

They don't, at least not so much as you might imagine.

See I've been thrown into 'no win' scenarios since I was old enough to walk.

It sucks.

But it is familiar.

So if you honestly believe that's all it takes to knock me off balance I'm guessing you don't know me as well as you thought.







The ball is in your court, as it has been this whole time.

Pod

I don't get it.
I don't understand.
I think I may not actually be one of you.
I just wandered in here by mistake.


So much of what happens escapes me,
and I can't seem to choose the expected reaction with any sort of reliability.


So if I could get some simple instructions,
maybe a check sheet,
operators manual,
a list of demands
cliff notes...

Well, I think it'd help out immensely.


Because I obviously haven't been able to figure it out on my own.





You wrote me the other day...
I'm not sure how to feel about it.
All this time and I still don't know how to react.
In a way it's almost funny,
I'm just finally learning to identify my own intentions,
so now I can't be sure of anyone else's.